Do you ever feel like there's a battle going on between hearing and obeying???
I feel like God was talking to me yesterday. I was reminded that while I am learning so much out here and God is showing me so much, I still have a ton to learn.
Second service came at 11:30 am. One of the students in the School of Worship showed up to just second service and I noticed that he was sitting by himself and quiet. Now usually this guy is very upbeat and loud. So I knew that something was wrong and I strongly felt God say, "Go give him a hug and say hi." That's it. God didn't give me these amazing words of strength or anything that I should have been worried. Just a hug and a Hi.... And I tried to find every excuse not to: Church was about to start, someone else was talking to him... etc. Stupid stuff. So we went through church and I thought about it. I still felt like God was telling me to do something. And what did I do? I left church. I went home... I took a nap.. I worked on homework. Then when it was time to go to sleep, guess what I couldn't do. Yup. Sleep.
I was so tired but I couldn't actually sleep. I stayed awake for hours trying to sleep... and then it hit me.
So I stopped and said, "Ok, God. I'll pray." I had no idea what was going on in this guy's life, but I just began to pray. At one o'clock in the morning I laid in bed and prayed for this guy, I prayed for his family, and his friends. I prayed for everything that I could think of, and I asked God to give me the words to pray.
And as soon as I said "Amen". I fell asleep.
We started class today with prayer and we found out that this guy had a death in the family. He was flying home this week to attend the funeral.
God began to speak to me during class. Why was I so hesitant to do what God had called me to do. Especially since it was an easy thing. I talk to this guy and I give him hugs pretty frequently, so why was this so hard!!! I followed God all the way to colorado!!!! Why was this harder!
I know that I'm still learning so much, so please keep me in your prayers. I'm very excited that I'm hearing God's voice, cause for a while there I felt like I couldn't. Pray that God will continue to do this and that I will be more willing to follow what he is telling me.
On a much lighter note, I have just experienced some of the most beautiful days of my life. It all started on Thursday when it snowed! There was ice on everything! I had to buy an ice scraper and one morning I spent 20 mins scraping inches of ice off of my car. I had to drive to church on Sunday in ice and slush. And while almost everyone was hating the weather, I took it all in. If I wasn't so freezing cold, I would have sat outside and just watched!
I posted a ton of pics on facebook, so you can check it out there: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=117587&id=672780372&l=d71a082738
Hi Jessica,
ReplyDeleteThis blog really made me cry. I am so glad that you recognize that you have to listen and obey God's voice. There have been so many times that God told me to do something and I didn't obey and then there is this enormous regret. Sometimes it's the little things that are the hardest. I guess we are just stubborn humans!! I am really proud of you girl. It takes alot of guts to go to another state all by yourself and do something that you know you are supposed to do. It is so exciting what God is doing... You are so awesome .. I can't wait for the next blog.
Love ya and miss you,
Karen :)