Even though it's too late...I'm sorry...

Today someone that I've known for a long time, died. Death in itself is tragic, I've been through enough of them to know. But this one hurt in a way that I've not known. Unfortunately, I can't say that I cared about this person the way I should have. 

We hear and talk so much about how we should be a people who care for others, despite their faults. But in reality we don't. We live our lives like we are better than others, better than the people who don't know as much as we do or act like we do, or like the same things we do. And we think that because they walk away from us, it's their fault. Today was a realization for me. It wasn't their fault they walked away. It was mine. If I had treated them like the person that they were, maybe things would be different. Maybe a life could have been saved. I don't know why this happened. I don't know what God has planned for this. 

But there is something that I have been challenged with. I want God to give me the desire to love people. Not just say that I love people, but truly love people, with no conditions. And not just my friends, but also the people that have hurt me and have annoyed me. I want to love the people that make it hard to love. 

I hope I never have this feeling again... I hope that maybe this blog post will reach someone and they won't ever have to feel this either....

And that's where this one ends....

Even though it's too late.....I'm sorry.....

Wow....

For a long time last night, that is all I could think.....Wow...

Do you ever have those moments when a light bulb goes on over your head and you grasp hold of a concept and you just sit there and....wow!

I had one of those moments last night. I got the opportunity to lead worship last night and I ended up pulling the song "Amazed". Church started and we went throught the set, people were worshipping and we get to the second chorus in "Amazed" and it says : You paint the morning sky, with miracles in mind, my hope will always stand, cause you hold me in your hand"

I got goosebumps when we sang the last line, so much so, that I had to sing it again, "My hope will always stand, cause you hold me in your hand"

I got this picture in my head, it was me, as tiny as could be sitting in this HUGE hand, just me sitting cross-legged in the palm of Jesus' hand.

Worship ended and we went on with the rest of service. The scriptures that Pastor spoke on was Philippians 4:6 and Matthew 6:25-34. As I read those scriptures, I thought about the picture that I saw as I was singing...."My hope will always stand, cause you hold me in your hand".

I really think that God is trying to tell us something. We live in a scary world, where people are losing jobs, families are falling apart, children are growing up before they are supposed to. It's natural for us to worry about things everyday. But in his word, God says, "Do not worry"
I especially like the Matthew 6:30, "And if God cares so wonderfully for the wildflowers that are her today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you, why do you have so little faith"? That verse alone was a "WOW" moment for me. If you think about it, flowers are beautful for a few days at most, and then they are gone, but God still cares "wonderfully" for them. How can we as human beings that were created in his image, think that he wont take care of us?


This post didn't really have much to do with Colorado, and there will probably be a few posts like this, me just sharing something that God is revealing in my life. To me it was just confirmation of my pervious blog post. God is good. All the time.

My prayer for you today would be that you will have"WOW" moments like these. That he will continuously amaze you everyday, through even the littlest things.

My Soul Waits...

I've been trying to do some kind of devotionals everyday. I need to make it a point to read my bible everyday so I can know the word like I should. I thought about just starting in a book, reading a few chapters and then picking a verse, but I think I need something that will give me a scripture and help me pick it apart to understand it better. So I did what almost everyone else does.....I turned to the Internet. If any of you are looking for some kind of devotional to do, let me tell you..there are TONS online. There are some that will even email you everyday with a new devotion!! Seriously, there should be no excuses for us NOT to read our bible everyday.
Anyways, today's devotional for me was on Psalm 130:5-6.
"I wait for the LORD, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning".
It is so hard for me to wait on God. I grow so impatient and feel that I must know all that's going to happen before it does. This verse to me means that I need to trust that God's word is true no matter how impatient I get. My impatience isn't going to change that fact. I know that God will provide, but only in his time. He knows what's best for me.
I'm slowly starting to see God provide in my going to Colorado. He has already provided a TON, but I'm seeing little jobs that he's providing me with. I was asked to sing ONE song at an ministry kick-off event. It's a paid gig, but more than that it will be a chance for me to use the voice that he gave me to reach this world. So not only is he providing, he's giving me a chance to use what he has provided me with.
Another example, I was asked to teach piano to one of the boys in our church. Also a paid gig, but now I'm helping to teach the next generation how to worship God and who knows what plans God has for this kid, but I'm excited to be apart of even just a little bit. I love sitting back and watching what God is doing in my life. It makes me excited for this next part of my life. I feel like he's finally fitting puzzle pieces together

OK, so now that I have written A LOT!! Here's my challenge to you:

I challenge you, be continuous in your prayers. Don't give up. Believe that God will provide ALL of your needs, not just some. Keep reading his word, and wait with expectation, knowing that he will come.

And when he does answer those prayers, come back and tell me about it. I need to be encouraged just as much as you do.

Have a great day!!!

The start of....a blog..

So last night I was thinking about how much my life will be changing in a few months. I thought about all the people that I will be leaving behind and how it might be very hard to keep all of you informed about what is going on in my life. I mean, so many of you people have helped mold me into what I am today. The least I can do is keep you informed, and even though I have MANY social-networking sites that I can keep you updated on (myspace, facebook, twitter) this seems like the best way for me to keep you fully in the loop. This will also be a great way for me to chronicle (get it....the name of my blog.. :) my journey to Colorado. I want to be able to look back and see what I've accomplished and see how amazing it is when I allow God to work in my life. I hope that most of my family and friends will read this and get some insight. Also, I hope other people who may not know me personally will read and be encouraged.

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